4.14.74 Sleep and More Sleep

We let Noah Cry last night. He didn't really cry much. He had woken for the fifth time last night and I had had it. I felt terrible but I let him scream. I sat in my bed beating myself up for letting my precious boy scream. Robert was suggesting that I pump milk and let him take a night shift in order that we both get some sleep but I really couldn't stand for that. All we are doing is avoiding the inevitable- Noah has to learn to sleep by himself. It worked when he was four months- he still cried but he slept much better all night long. Now he's almost six months old. So Noah then woke again at 2:30 am. So I fed him. When he woke at 5:40. I fed him and he was up for the day. However I still am all guilty feeling that I can't do more the help him sleep because my sleep is more important. I also don't want to loose sleep more than I have to. Because I am a better parent when I get sleep. For example, last night I had two blocks of three hours of uninterrupted sleep. I feel so much better than I normally do. In my prebaby life I felt less than okay with six hours. Now it's like I'm a new woman and it wasn't even six full hours in a row!