He's So Beautiful

Noah has the sweetest smile. It's been a while since I've bounced him to sleep on the exercise ball. I've been trying to bounce him until his eyes get heavy in hopes of avoiding his screams when I put him down.

Yesterday I took Hannah to her Music Together class at 5:30pm. I for some reason thought I would be home in time to try and top Noah off with some milk but he was going to bed at 6pm and we weren't going to be back until 6:30 at the earliest. Robert met us at the garage door, which means that things didn't go so well. I could hear Noah screaming through the monitor. My heart just sunk. Robert told me he went in every five minutes to pat him out of his angry crying but nothing was working. Either he was over tired or just plain angry because Robert took the pacifier out of his mouth before he put Noah down to sleep- not knowing that I had let Noah sleep with a pacifier for two of his naps because I was hoping he'd sleep more after having only slept two short naps in the morning because of he would start coughing and wake himself up! I marched upstairs and took an angry Noah out of his crib and stroked his head and held his hands while he was nursing. I could feel the anxiousness subside and the sleep set in. He started to cough again around 10pm that night so I put the humidifier on in his room and slept in the double bed next to his crib waiting until the next nursing to pull him into bed with me. He woke up a lot. Not to nurse every time but because he was coughing. I was very happy to be sleeping with him just to know that he was okay. He woke up this morning a bit congested but seems to be doing better now. Which leads me to his beautiful smile. When Noah drifts off to sleep he often smiles. It just sends waves of pure love through me. It's the most adorable, beautiful thing I get to experience being his mom. I'm so glad he's ours! What a sweet joy!!